not there yet

Isn't that the most annoying realisation? The "nope, not yet" of still needing to drive several hours on a long road trip or of having worked so hard on a project to then take a step back and see that you're only a fraction of the way there.

Years ago I discovered labyrinths. Unlike mazes, they're not meant to get you lost, but rather, to help you be found. Walking around them is an exercise of "not there yet." The path winds you around a giant circle - sometimes close to the centre, then it shoots you right out to the edge.

I feel like the past few years for me have been like walking a labyrinth. I know I'm on a journey of being re-found. Sometimes I know I'm close to getting to where I want to be, even though I can't articulate that destination. Other times I know I'm way off base. Occasionally - or often - I feel frustrated that I'm on this stupid path and just want to walk away from it.

But I know that God's not done with me and most of the time I'm not done with him either. One day I'll reach that centre... but not yet.